To love is to risk not being loved in return.
To hope is to risk pain.
To try is to risk failure,
But risk must be taken,
Because the greatest hazard in life,
Is to risk nothing.

i just read one of the most beautiful fictions ever: Just Another Girl. it`s along the lines of "A Walk to Remember," but there`s a twist. it was so sentimental.

shutting up now. no need to get all girly.

yes, so i had volleyball & i was sorta sweaty. ew. my arm is still bruised. it`s a big bruise too. double ew. oh well. it doesn`t hurt playing volleyball like before. it`s just 'whatever' now.

• no fights with the family.
• boyfriend is the best.
• friends are chill. (lol.)
• school is ok.

that`s it for the update i guess.

infinity hugs&love,

milli<3

omg. i am extremely...effing emotional. -_- but i`m not solving my problems with food. yay. but i do need to eat. i forgot to eat lunch & i didn`t eat supper. ugh. i don`t feel hungry, but i know i have to eat so i won`t fall over and die. get what i`m sayin'?

ooh dear. i`m on one of those "boost-up-your-self-esteem" mind trips... again. oh xanga, xanga... how many times have i been through those? how many xangas have i made to express my inner being & emotions? hmm? several (since 6th grade!), that`s what. oh, when will it all end so i can be ok?

my head hurts. thinking too much makes me go monkeys. i still feel tired. i can hardly keep my eyes open... all this week it`s been this way. that lock-in sure put me off balance.

i have so many things going through my head. O_O AAH. it hurts. but all this extra free time will give me thinking space. (UNFORTUNATELY.) ...yea, maybe now i`ll figure out why everyone`s acting like something`s shoved up their asses. seriously...we`re all so cranky, crabby, attitude-ish... wtf? lol i`m a bitch so i don`t count. jk.

ok i`m hungry. byebye. xoxo<3

s i m p l i c i t y . . .  it can be so beautiful when done right.

eh... whatever. i`m not feeling too groovy lately. not stressed... things just haven`t been going my way. no trouble though, things will get back on track.

push, push, push...
until you cannot push no more,
until you breathe your last breath.
DO NOT GIVE UP.
give up now...
you can`t possibly make it.
you`re not good enough,
so why should you even try?
NO DO NOT GIVE UP.
push... strive... excell...
run to the finish line.
show them you can do it.
of course you can`t do it.
you know you can`t.
they have no faith in you.
all they want is for you to fail.
even if they don`t believe in you,
YOU have to believe in yourself.
you can make it through.
you can do it...
have you had enough?
just give up already.
people are out to get you,
they are out to hurt you in any way.
so just give up... give in...

that little thing i just typed up is what`s going on inside my head. forever contradicting. it`s easy to tell which side is which. it keeps going on & on & on... it`s driving me nuts.

someone shoot me.

people who are starting to sulk and show it too much are aggravating me. people who gravel in SELF PITY to get OTHERS to pity them just eats at me. sure, everyone`s guilty of doing that a few times in life but ERGH.

btw, no one ask me for advice anymore. i tell you things that I should be doing but won`t because i`m a coward. can you see "H-Y-P-O-C-R-I-T-E" stamped across my forehead? ... yea, i thought so too.

again, someone shoot me... or stab me. OR push me off a cliff. DO SOMETHiNG!

Regret is vain.
Then do not grieve for what you would efface,
The sudden failure of the past, the pain
Of its unwilling change, and the disgrace.

erugfhgf damnit i`m sick of this shit. idiots these days. IDIOTS! i`m not even talking about young, adolescent human beings, i`m talking about adults! idiots...

tothatspecialsomeone; i miss(ed) you, i miss(ed) you, i miss(ed) you! times infinity. i would`ve told you that but it would`ve sounded stupid...(fck you to the people who think i`m nuts. is it wrong to miss someone like crazy?) speaking of missing someone, i miss the family back on the west coast biiiatches lmao.

i really need to get a life and learn how to type more interesting things...

yay lookie at what i made `=)

adobe imageready is my new love. yea... just thought i`d share something with ya `=)

lol these guys are awesome `XD.

peaceeeeout,
milli